Ambient Anxiety
I’m trying to figure out why a low level anxiety has been creeping into my consciousness more and more recently. I’m used to being pretty happy and content most of the time. But I’ve found myself less at ease for longer periods of time than my historical norm. There are a few anxiety-inducing constants in my life so I’m ruling them out for the most part… I work in a volatile industry where the average time spent at a company is about 2 years. This is in part due to the frequent closures and layoffs. Heather has degenerative diseases that are slowly taking away more and more of the pleasures in her life and causing her to suffer in new and terrible ways. Ever since I was a kid, the physical sustainability of the modern world seemed dubious at best. The amount of resources we casually use and discard simply doesn’t make sense. And as we burn through these resources we’re going to feel a lot of pain. That’s been a Sword of Damocles hanging over me as long as I can remember. But it’